Will I always be on this medication? 

“Will I always be on this medication?”, a question I frequently ask myself. Will I need to take a pill every day for the rest of my life just to feel ‘normal‘? Or will I finally be strong enough on my own to survive without taking anything to be happy? 

I am 24 years old and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety 5 years ago. I was given Cipralex the first time, and thankfully I got lucky and it worked for me. I know many people who go through a period of hell to find the right medication for them.

When I was 21 I decided to try and come off of it for good. My doctor helped me to properly taper off of it, and I felt great for a couple weeks. I was able to stay out later, drink more without feeling tired and nauseous, and live what I thought was a normal, happy life. 

But after those few weeks things seemed to go back to the way they were before I was diagnosed. I was so anxius I couldn’t even focus on watching a t.v. show, and I was so down I spent most weekends in bed. I had to come to terms with my emotions and decided it was time to go back on the medication. 

I’m not sure if anyone will actually read this but if you happen to stumble across my post and have any advice about staying on medication/ coming off of it, I would really appreciate it! 

Will I always be on this medication?